CHAPTER II.
On the Nature of Repentance. |
In the last chapter, I
proved that all are by nature, in a state of spiritual
darkness and distance from God, defiled with sin and exposed
to future punishment. It is no easy matter to believe a
doctrine, so grating to all the feelings which self-love
fondly cherishes. Yet this is necessary, as a first step in
religion; and without it, we stumble at the threshold.
Having opened the way, I shall now proceed to shew the
nature of repentance. It is of the highest importance that
we should have right sentiments on this subject. There are
few persons but sometimes hear or speak of repentance. The
vilest reprobates will in their more sober moments own the
need of repentance. While men are in the very act of sinning
against God, the mind is now and then struck with a thought
of repentance. But we have reason to fear, there are not
many who have just ideas of what the scriptures mean by this
term. Some take the name for the thing, the shadow for the
substance. Others think of nothing more than a slight
reformation. If the wound be skinned over, they conclude it
is healed. If the wild beast be chained, they are not
concerned that it should be tamed. What numbers are there,
who vainly imagine they have a power to produce the change
required by themselves! Strangers to the corruption of the
heart, and the strength of evil habits, they suppose they
can forsake vice and become virtuous when they please, and
leap out of Delilah’s lap into Abraham’s bosom. Sin first
deceives, next stupefies, and at last destroys. While men
entertain such loose, erroneous notions, trusting to their
own power, and despising or neglecting the grace of God, it
may be truly said, they put their repentance in the place of
Christ. It is necessary therefore that we should carefully
guard against every thing which leads to such delusions.
I shall endeavour to shew the nature of true repentance.
That repentance which issues in life eternal, is a change of
mind, contrition of heart, and deep self-abhorrence.
A change of mind.
While a sinner is in a carnal state, his views and
sentiments, his hopes and fears, his aims and motives, are
directly contrary to what they ought to be. He scorns
substantial blessings, and catches at shadows. He refuses
the heavenly manna, and according to the language of the
prophet, feeds upon ashes. He rejects the pearl of great
price, and rakes up despicable rubbish. The things of the
spirit of God, in which alone there is true wisdom, appear
foolishness to him. As his imagination gilds every thing
with false colours, he is pleased where he should be
disgusted, and disgusted where he ought to be pleased. He is
like a hungry man that dreameth, and behold he eateth, but
he awaketh and his soul is empty; or a thirsty man that
dreameth, and behold he drinketh, but he awaketh and he is
faint Isaiah 29:8.
But in repentance, a happy change takes place. He who is
brought under the saving influence of divine grace, is
renewed in the spirit of his mind. The eyes of his
understanding are enlightened, to see the vanity of the
world, the evil of sin, and the value of eternal
possessions. Whatever relates to God, to Christ, and to the
immortal soul, now appears in a new light.
The sincere penitent has right views of God. Once he did not
like to retain God in his knowledge. He had a revolting and
a rebellious heart. The law of God, requiring perfect
obedience, was thought too strict. The justice of God,
preparing; a cup of indignation for the wicked, was thought
too severe. The worship of God was felt to be a weariness
and an intolerable burden.
While such was the frame of the sinner’s mind, no wonder he
should turn away from religion with hatred and scorn. Job
describes the wicked in prosperity, in the following
remarkable language; Therefore they say unto God, depart
from us; for we desire not the knowledge of thy ways. What
is the Almighty, that we should serve him? and what profit
should we have if we pray unto him? Job 21:14-15. One of
this character hates the light, because his deeds are evil.
But he who has undergone a thorough change, has new thoughts
of God. He sees that he is supremely great, and infinitely
gracious, worthy of the highest love and reverence, from
every creature in earth and heaven. He is convinced, that
the law is holy, just, and good, and when it condemns
himself, goes not a jot too far. He is ready to own, that if
he had been compelled to drink the cup of wrath, and wring
out its bitterest dregs, he should not have had a drop more
than he deserved. In short, he perceives that God is a rock,
his work is perfect, his word is pure, and all his ways are
wonderful, and past finding out. And is it not evident, that
the more the holiness and goodness of the Lord are seen, the
blacker and viler sin will appear? “The carnal man,” as a
good writer observes, “is apt to think God ought to repent
of making such hard laws, rather than that he himself should
repent of breaking them.” Instead of changing his course,
and turning out of the broad into the narrow way, he acts as
if God would change his councils, and give blessings where
he has threatened curses. Now every true penitent has quite
different views. He honours God, and abases himself in the
dust. Far from fretting and murmuring against the Lord, he
stands amazed at his long suffering.
A sincere penitent has right views, and new thoughts of
Christ.
Once Jesus appeared to him as a root out of dry ground,
having no form or comeliness, to make him desired. But now
his divine excellency and glory are discerned and
acknowledged. He bows himself at the feet of Jesus, and
looks to him as the great Shepherd, Surety, Saviour, and
Redeemer of his people. He beholds the brightness of the
Father’s glory, the express image of his person, and the
fulness of the Godhead in Christ. He sees all the promises
and provisions of the gospel, as well as the keys of death
and of hell in the mighty and faithful hands of Christ. What
words can truly set forth the astonishing condescension and
kindness of the Saviour? “If”, said Austin, “the whole sea
were ink, and every blade of grass a pen, we could not fully
describe the love of Christ.” It is impossible to have clear
views, or spiritual discoveries of the adorable Redeemer,
and not be in a considerable degree affected by them. Mr.
Flavel calls repentance the tear that drops from the eye of
faith, while looking to Jesus. Who can behold the Son of God
coming in the flesh, laying down his life as a sacrifice,
and conquering death and the powers of darkness for us,
without feeling a glow of love to him? To them that believe,
he is precious.
The sincere penitent has new thoughts of his own soul.
Once the body engaged all his care. That it might be adorned
and admired, pleased and pampered, he spared no pains or
costs. What shall I eat, what shall 1 drink, and wherewith
shall 1 be clothed, if not the cry of his lips, was the
language of his heart. But now being enlightened from above,
he beholds the unspeakable worth of the immortal soul, and
his chief concern is its salvation. O, says he, I have
played the fool, and erred exceedingly in providing for the
flesh, and neglecting the better part — the never dying
spirit! How shall I be delivered from the wrath to come?
What shall I do to be saved? If my house were burnt down, I
might get another; if my Friends were cut off, I might
procure new ones; if my health were destroyed, it might be
restored; but if my soul be lost, it can never be recovered,
and shall be utterly undone. Such are the views of a true
penitent!
And let me ask, are your thoughts of God, of Christ, and of
your own soul, very different from what they once were?
Without such a change of mind, there cannot be genuine
repentance. If any man be in Christ, he is a new creature:
old things are passed away: behold all things are become
new. 2 Corinthians 5:17. I do not say that repentance is
always produced by the same means, or in the same manner. In
one instance, the mind is changed, as a river gradually
drawn into a fresh channel; and in another, as a river
turned into a new course, by the shock of an earthquake.
Such was the difference between the conversion of Saul of
Tarsus, and that of Lydia.
Repentance is contrition of heart.
The prophets of old called the Jews a stiffnecked,
stout-hearted, and rebellious people. How many in the
present day answer to this description! Though we warn them,
admonish them, intreat them, and thunder aloud in their ears
the threatenings of the law; though we shew them the
nearness of death, the certainty and solemnity of the last
judgment, the transporting happiness of heaven, and the
endless, unutterable misery of hell—they remain unaffected
and unconcerned! They sleep like Jonah! while the tempest,
which their own sins have raised, threatens them with
instant destruction. How awful is it to see this daring
presumption—this unfeeling stupidity, continued to the last
hour of life!” There are some persons,” says Mr. Simpson,
“so hardened in sin, and so totally given up of God, that
neither sickness nor death can make any impression on them.”
He mentions one of this unhappy description in Essex, not
far from the place where I now write; whom he both visited
during his illness, and interred after he was dead. He was
of a good family, and possessed good abilities; but wasted
all his property and ruined his constitution, in a course of
riot and excess. Among his bottle companions, he made a jest
of hell, and turned every thing sacred into ridicule. In
this way he lived, and died a martyr to spirituous liquors;
cursing and blaspheming to the last, notwithstanding all
that could be done to bring him to a better mind (Simpson’s
Plea for Religion, p. 256). O the blinding and hardening
nature of sin!
What poison is so subtle, so dangerous, so deadly? How does
it brutalize and ruin the soul! How does it warp the
judgment, pervert the will, and stupify the heart!
If you work all uncleanness with greediness, you will in a
short time be past feeling. Reproofs will have no edge to
wound; warnings, no weight to move you. And is there any
thing on earth more to be dreaded than such a state? There
is truth in the saying of a good author, “It is better to
have a burdened conscience than a benumbed conscience: you
had better be over-fearful, than have no fear of God before
your eyes.” The words of the apostle to the Hebrews are
never out of season: Exhort one another daily, while it is
called to-day; lest any of you be hardened through the
deceitfulness of sin. Hebrews 3:13.
Now, true repentance is a state of mind, directly opposite
to that which I have just described. It is in the scriptures
called a broken heart, or a contrite spirit. Psalm 51:17.
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and a
contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise. Men, as one
observes, despise broken things; but God does not despise a
broken heart; so far from it, that he accounts the sorrow of
a penitent sinner more valuable than the most costly
sacrifice. When the word of God is applied by the power of
divine grace, the flinty heart melts into tender grief, and
the eyes overflow with floods of tears. What anxious
thoughts! what strong and cutting convictions are now felt!
When the fountains of the great deep are broken up within,
what agonies wring the soul! O, says the sinner, I have
rebelled against that God whom angels adore! I have broken
his laws, defied his judgments, and despised his mercies. I
have neglected the great salvation, and ungratefully
slighted that compassionate and glorious Redeemer, who gave
his life a ransom for me! I have turned a deaf ear to the
joyful sound of the gospel, and done despite unto the Spirit
of grace! Such thoughts as these are the arrows of the
Almighty, which pierce the heart with the keenest anguish,
and make those deep wounds, which nothing but the balm of
Gilead can heal. What is pain of body, compared with
distress of mind? The spirit of a man will sustain his
infirmity, hut a wounded spirit who can bear? Yet we may
truly say, he who thus sincerely mourns over his sins, shall
not eternally sink under them.
Behold David, that broken hearted penitent! How deeply he
laments his sin. How fully and feelingly he confesses it.
How humbly and earnestly he prays for pardoning and renewing
grace.
Psalm 51:3- 4. For I acknowledge my transgression, and my
sin is ever before me. Against thee, thee only have I
sinned, and done this evil in thy sight. Purge me with
hyssop, and I shall be clean; wash me, and I shall be whiter
than snow. Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones
which thou hast broken may rejoice. He did not cast a hasty
glance at sin, and soon forget it again. No, wherever he
went, it seemed to haunt him as a frightful monster. It was
not the injury done to men, so much as the offensiveness of
his crimes to God, that filled him with bitterness. There
are few, who do not sometimes feel a pang of remorse, but
the contrition of David’s heart is compared to the anguish
of broken bones.
Behold the penitent publican, mentioned Luke 18:13. Pressed
beneath the load of his guilt, he goes to the temple to
pray. But he stood afar off, and would not so much as lift
up his eyes to heaven, but smote upon his breast, crying,
God, be merciful to me, a sinner! His distance, and humble
posture, betoken the sense he felt of his own unworthiness,
conscious that he might have been, in justice, everlastingly
banished from the holy temple, and all the means of grace.
His smiting upon his heart, silently, but expressively said,
here lies my guilt, my greatest burden; here are deep fixed
the barbed and bitter arrows of remorse. His short, but
solemn and fervent prayer, flew up to heaven, and speedily
brought down pardon, so that he went down to his house
justified. Do not think his case was a singular one. While
you remain on earth, you will need daily to put up the same
petition to God. That excellent man, Archbishop Usher, often
said, he hoped to die with the language of the publican in
his mouth, and he who wrote his life, tells us, his wish was
fulfilled; he died saying, God be merciful to me, a sinner.
Behold the penitent prostitute, Luke 7:37. She goes uncalled
into the house of Simon the pharisee, to carry her broken
heart, and her box of ointment to Jesus. Had she continued
in her old course of sin, instead of seeking Christ, she
would have shunned him, saying with the devils, art thou
come to torment me? But now, as Bishop Hall observes, “those
eyes which had been fires of lusts, are become fountains of
tears; and those hairs which had been nets to catch her
wanton lovers, are made a towel to wipe her Redeemer’s
feet.” And though Simon murmured, the meek and merciful
Saviour said, her sins, which are many, are forgiven her. In
the last two instances, humility and penitence are set in a
more striking light, by being opposed to the disgusting
pride, presumption, and uncharitableness of the
self-righteous pharisees.
I might easily produce many more examples, but I shall only
mention one. Hear the confession of that well known
penitent, the Earl of Rochester, who had been a worthless
profligate. On his death-bed, he cried out, “ O blessed God,
can such a horrid creature as I am be accepted by thee, who
have denied thy being, and contemned thy power? Can there be
mercy and pardon for me? Will God own such a wretch as I? In
the midst of his sickness, he said still farther; shall the
unspeakable joys of heaven be conferred upon me? O, mighty
Saviour, never but through thine infinite love and
satisfaction! O, never, but by the purchase of thy blood!
adding, that with all abhorrence he reflected upon his
former life, that from his heart he repented of all that
folly and madness, of which he had been guilty.”
And now, reader, ask yourself as in the sight of God,
whether you know any thing of this godly sorrow. Has your
heart been touched and dissolved by the goodness of God?
Have you, like David, cast your soul at the footstool of
Jehovah? Have you smitten your guilty bosom like the
publican? Have you sighed and wept over your transgression,
and prayed as in an agony for pardon and peace? Be assured,
repentance is no such light thing as many have supposed. The
bars of unbelief and prejudice must be broken, and the heart
of stone turned into a heart of flesh. Think not a few words
of confession, or drops of grief, are all that is required.
The conscience once softened, must never lose its
tenderness. Till we cease from sinning, the stream of
repentance must not cease from flowing. “Tears,” said Bishop
Hopkins, “are the inheritance of our eyes, either our
sufferings call for them, or our sins; and nothing can
wholly dry them up but the dust of the grave.”
Repentance is deep self-abhorrence.
When the covetous and wretched Achan, who was a troubler of
Israel, was drawn by Lot, Joshua said to him, My son, give,
I pray thee, glory to the Lord God of Israel, and make
confession to him; and tell me now what thou hast done; hide
it not from me. Joshua 7:19. It is no easy matter to bring
down the proud looks and high thoughts of vain man. Very few
are willing to give glory to God, and take shame to
themselves. No sooner, however, does a man come to his right
mind, than his self-flattering notions vanish. Instead of
boasting, he lays his hand upon his mouth, and bows his soul
to the dust, before the most high God. While he views his
sins, he is abased and confounded, with a consideration of
their number, their greatness, and their fruits.
The penitent is abased and confounded with a view of the
number of his sins.
He looks back, and sees what negligence, ingratitude, and
rebellion have run through the years of past life. He looks
within, and sees legions of vain thoughts, thick as motes in
the sun, and shoals of hateful lusts and vicious passions,
working as in a troubled sea. He finds he has been adding
folly to folly, and sin to sin, till his guilt rises as a
mountain, and shuts out the prospect of heaven. He owns that
the corruption of his nature has been pouring forth, without
ceasing, streams of actual transgression and abomination,
from the beginning of life to the present moment. How
sincerely then can he adopt the words of the Psalmist, My
iniquities have taken hold upon me, so that I am not able to
look up; they are more than the hairs of my head; therefore
my heart faileth me. Psalm 40:12.
Do you exclaim, it is not so with me? Perhaps you fix your
thoughts on two or three glaring crimes, and overlooking the
rest, think your sins are but few. To remove your error, let
me desire you to consider, for a moment, the sins of the
tongue only. Even in this little member you will find a
world of iniquity. Not only for every oath, and every lie,
but also for every idle word, men must give an account to
God. And “ if,” as the pious Bishop Beveridge observes,” all
our vain and idle words had been written, how many vast
volumes would they make!” Who then can number the millions
and millions of his sins, in thought, speech, and conduct?
It is well for us, that the free gift is of many offences
unto justification of life. However great the sum of our
transgressions, the multitude of God’s mercies is still
greater. Though the catalogue of our sins were long enough
to reach from earth to heaven, the ample roll of new
covenant blessings would stretch beyond it. Where sin
abounded, grace does much more abound.
The penitent is abased and confounded with a view of the
greatness of his sins.
We must not be guided by the loose prevailing opinions of
the world. The worst men have generally the least sense of
the heinousness or evil of sin. If the prisoner, who is
tried for his crimes, were to fix the measure of his guilt,
rather than the Judge set to enforce the laws, who would be
condemned or punished? Now let it be remembered, every sin
is blame-worthy, just in the degree that it opposes the
truth, holiness, and goodness of God. Suppose you saw a man
go to a just and amiable prince, and begin to revile him in
abusive language, spit in his face out of contempt, and
strike him with malice, would you not reckon such conduct
highly blameable? Bat should you be told, that the same
person had received from the prince, whom he so reviled and
injured, a thousand favours, would you not think him a
monster of ingratitude and wickedness? And let it be
considered, that God is the glorious King of kings, your
Creator and Preserver, who has all your life loaded you with
benefits. Every wicked deed, every profane word, and every
vile thought, casts contempt upon the Majesty of heaven. The
bold transgressor is up in arms of rebellion against God,
and is continually either striking at his authority, or
trampling on his goodness. Who then can describe the horrid
nature and heinous evil of sin? The infinitely holy and
glorious Jehovah himself says, O do not that abominable
thing which my soul hateth! He has given us his law, that
sin, by the commandment might appear exceeding sinful.
Romans 7:13.
When a true penitent has a full view of the evil and
odiousness of sin, he cannot but he abased before God. He
takes up as his own, the words of Job, Lo ! I abhor myself,
and repent in dust and ashes. He can heartily join with Ezra
and say, O my God, I am ashamed and blush to lift up my face
to thee, my God ; for our iniquities are increased over our
heads, and our trespass is grown up to the heavens. Ezra
9:6. When I look at thy mercies, I am confounded and covered
with shame. What tender calls and solemn admonitions have I
neglected! What early and abundant advantages have I lost!
What precious privileges and opportunities have I despised!
If I look to the beasts, they reproach me, and cover me with
shame and confusion. Even the dull ox knoweth his owner, and
the stupid ass his master’s crib; but I have not known God,
nor gratefully considered his manifold favours. Isaiah 1:3.
Surely my sin is written as with a pen of iron, or the point
of a diamond, and nothing but the blood of Christ can blot
it put.
The penitent is abased and confounded with a view of the
fruits and effects of his sins.
God declares, that the wicked shall eat the fruit of his own
doings. Now as there is bitterness in every drop of gall,
and in every branch of wormwood, so there is misery in every
sin. The man who is brought to true repentance, will freely
acknowledge this. Ask him, What fruit have you in those
things whereof you are now ashamed? He replies, bitter fruit
indeed! I dishonoured and offended my God, wronged and
ruined my own soul, encouraged and emboldened my friends and
neighbours in their evil ways! O that my head were waters,
and mine eyes a fountain of tears, that I might weep day and
night for my sins! The fire which I could easily kindle, I
cannot quench. The bad seed I have sown has already taken
root, and spreads against all my endeavours to prevent it.
Much of the evil I have done, can never be undone. O, my
God, if thou art reconciled to me, how can I be reconciled
to myself? Even the riches of thy free forgiving grace only
shew me in a clearer light, my own utter unworthiness and
vile depravity.
Do you think these expressions of self-abhorrence too
strong? Do you cry out, this is carrying the thing too far?
Let it however be settled whether it be so or not, by an
appeal to the scriptures. If what has been said be not
agreeable to them, let it be condemned and rejected. Hear
what the Lord says to Israel by the prophet Ezekiel, And ye
shall remember your ways, and all your doings wherein you
have, been defiled; and ye shall loathe yourselves in your
own sight, for all the evils that ye have committed. Ezekiel
20:43. It is not possible to use stronger expressions than
these. And as we live amidst greater light, can it be
supposed that our sins are less hateful, and less hurtful
than those of the ancient Jews? It appears also from other
parts of the same prophecies, that this kind of silent
soul-softening grief and humiliation, is necessary even when
God declares himself pacified towards us. Ezekiel 16:63.
There is nothing in the world can cast down self-love, and
stir up self-loathing, like a believing regard to a
pardoning God, and a sin-atoning Saviour.
Having shown the nature of repentance, I shall conclude this
chapter with a few needful cautions.
1. Do not put confession of sin in the place of repentance.
I grant, indeed, we ought to confess with our mouths, as
well as believe with our hearts. A humble soul is ready to
join with David, I will declare my transgression, I will be
sorry far my sin; but these two do not always go together.
It is probable you have often united with others in saying,
O Lord, we have offended against thy holy laws; we have left
undone those things which we ought to have done, and have
done those things which we ought not to have done. Have not
these words passed through your lips, without one serious
thought ever passing through your mind? You have hundreds of
times declared yourself one among miserable sinners, and yet
perhaps never truly felt your misery. Shall I say such
confessions are empty, unmeaning sounds? a mere waste of
breath? This would be even saying too little, for when
careless arid impious men utter such things, it is downright
hypocrisy. Be not deceived, God is not mocked. Is it not
shocking to think of men pouring out prayers one hour,
belching out horrid oaths the next? Doth a fountain send
forth at the same time sweet water and bitter? The pharisees
made long prayers in the synagogues and in the streets to be
seen of men, not to be heard of God. I have read of Romish
priests teaching their blind and bigotted followers, that
one confession in a year, if well paid for, would prevail
with Peter to open the gates of heaven. Others have taken
care to repeat a certain number of prayers everyday, as
regularly as the clock, strikes, and made this the ground of
their hope. Can you think the great God is pleased with mere
lip-service and formality? No, if you were to condemn
yourself in the most abasing language, and sit down in
sackcloth and ashes, all this would avail nothing, while the
heart remained unaffected and unhumbled.
2. Do not mistake the occasional meltings of natural
affection for repentance.
Some, from their constitutions, are more soft and yielding
than others. When a sermon is warmly addressed to the
passions, they dissolve into tears. When a death takes place
in their family, they weep and seem much affected; but in a
very short time it is all gone. Their tears are scarcely
dried up, before they return to their former follies. Their
goodness is like the morning cloud or the early dew. Yet is
not this natural tenderness often mistaken for real
repentance? Beware that you are not so deceived. If you are
possessed of soft and lively feelings, this caution is
highly necessary. You may hear of death, and resemble a man
starting from his sleep, who almost instantly falls back
upon his pillow, and is never quite awake. You may hear of
your sins, and make confession, but never hate them or abhor
yourself for committing them. You may read the mournful
history of a Saviour’s sufferings, and weep just as you
would over any other moving story. Such feelings as these
are no sure signs of repentance. Ice may be a little thawed
on the surface, while the warm sun-beams dart upon it, and
yet be soon frozen again as hard as a stone. A poet
observes, “that tears rise from different causes, as if from
separate cisterns in the soul.” There is but one spring from
which evangelical repentance can flow, and that spring,
which is in a state of nature shut up and sealed, can be
opened by none but the Holy Spirit. When his power touches
the heart, as the rod of Moses smote the rock, the waters
gush out, and continue to run through the whole wilderness.
Doubtless a man may mourn and murmur, but never come to a
right mind. See the worn-out reprobate. He repents, of what?
not that he has sinned against God, but that his fortune is
squandered, his family ruined, his health destroyed. His
will is the same, if he had but the means to pursue his old
ways. Esau cried earnestly, and wept bitterly, when he
sought his father’s blessing; and yet he was a profane
person; there was not a drop of godly sorrow in all his
tears. Hebrews 12:16.
3. When you begin to feel some serious concern, be not eager
to get rid of your uneasiness by improper means.
Too many try to banish their fears, and bury their
convictions, amidst the tumults and cares of the world. This
is sure to make what is bad still worse. If you banish your
fears, they will return as an armed host, increased both in
number and force. If you bury your convictions, they will
most likely soon rise again, and haunt you in every place.
When Felix sent for Paul, to hear him concerning the faith
in Christ, it was perhaps to gratify his curious humour. But
while Paul reasoned of righteousness, temperance, and
judgment to come, Felix trembled. A very remarkable instance
of the power of conscience. It is common enough for
prisoners to tremble at the sight of the judge, but it was a
new thing for a judge to tremble at the words of a prisoner.
It would have been a favourable sign, had the governor
cried, O Paul! these are the weightiest things I ever heard
in my life. Open and explain to me these doctrines at large.
There is no time to be lost. If there is a judgment to come,
how shall I give up my account? How can I be pardoned and
accepted ? Unhappy Felix! instead of taking this method, he
said, Go thy way for this time, and when I have a more
convenient season I will send for thee. Many, says an old
divine, are glad to get rid of the shaking ague, though it
should leave them in a deep decline. While Paul was relating
his own conversion, Agrippa cried, Almost thou persuadest me
to be a Christian. O beware you do not act over again the
foolish part of Felix, and the timid halting part of
Agrippa. If you flee from the avenger of blood, and stop
short, though but a few steps from the refuge, you will be
assuredly apprehended and punished. O, do not trifle with
eternal things, or labour to smother those convictions which
sometimes seize the conscience. Do not throw down the book
which makes you uneasy, or shun the face of a faithful
reprover. It is to avoid present pain, that many rush into
eternal punishment. To imagine you can gain ease, by mixing
with the giddy multitude, is quite as absurd, as to think of
healing a wound by laying on a plaister, before the thorn is
removed.
4. Do not rest contented with what the world calls morality.
This is too often put in the place of repentance. Many build
up a wall, and daub it with untempered mortar, and because
it looks well, conclude all is safe. Ezekiel 13:10-11. But
as the materials are bad, and the foundation sandy, however
it may be plaistered and adorned, when the sapping rains
descend and the violent winds blow, it will fall, and bury
the foolish builders under its ruins. If you seem troubled
about your sins, and the prospect of future misery, false
teachers will tell you to live a good life and make yourself
quite easy. But the apostles always directed sensible,
inquiring sinners, at once to Christ. You have no hope left
you, but what is centred in Christ. You must renounce your
own, to trust in his righteousness. You must determine to
know nothing, save Jesus Christ and him crucified. All who
are forgiven, are forgiven for Christ’s sake. All who are
accepted, are accepted in the beloved. As God spared not his
own Son, but delivered him up for us all, he will with him
freely give us all things. Romans 8:32. But without Christ,
he will bestow nothing. Do not think God will sell you
eternal blessings for your poor, maimed, moral duties. By
grace are ye saved. Ephesians 2:8. Neither think you will
make yourself fit, and then come to Christ. If you come at
all, you must come as you are. Suppose, as a good writer
observes, a man to be lame and wounded, would it not be
absurd to recommend him to enter the service of some great
prince, to run his errands, and do his work? Ought he not
first to be led to a skilful surgeon, to have his wounds
cleansed and healed? Thus a sinner must be brought to
repentance, before he can be trained to obedience. A moral
life can flow only from a renewed heart. Elijah, says
Boston, would have done the inhabitants of Jericho but
little good, had he purified the bad water contained in all
the vessels of their city, if he had not cast his salt into
the spring. Let your constant cry be, Lord, save me, or I
perish. Plead for the forgiveness of sins, and an
inheritance among the saints. Pray to be justified freely,
and sanctified wholly by the rich grace of our Lord Jesus
Christ. Do not begin to make excuse. Now hath God granted to
the Gentiles repentance unto life. May you rejoice in this
grant, and live the rest of your time to him who died for
you. |